She feels so bad she killed him and that he was her first kill even though she was brainwashed. Like, he and Anise are the youngest people she's killed and she feels awful about it. She knows she won't ever be able to make it up to him, so she doesn't even try and understands his hesitance around her completely.

But she can also understand his posturing, especially because she did and does a lot of her own. If Aya hadn't pointed out how much she loathes herself, she probably wouldn't have realized that and wouldn't have seen the compassion in Yuya. She likes how he talks about his dad too, because her mom left her when she was little, but her dad has been by her side and she assumes if a guy like that just disappeared it's not because he walked out on him.

She thinks he sounds like a nice kid but yeah... all their conversations would be super strained and not at all comfortable, so she doesn't even try. :( She's extremely grateful he is not out for her blood though, especially after Peko's extreme threat.