Non-Chore CR Meme

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TL;DR Character Relationship Meme
(A Cheat Sheet for CR Charts)



♥ Step one: post with your characters.
♠ Step two: respond to other people's characters with your characters.
♦ Step three: they tell you in detail what their character thinks of your character. TL;DR is encouraged; that's how this works.
♣ Optional step four: discuss it with them if you want! Make a big chain of tl;dr if you're up to it.
♥ Step five: other people do the same thing to you! Maybe you even harvest your tl;dr to use in a CR chart later.
♠ Step six: keep checking back in so that no one is ever late!

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sweet innocent mabel

So! First I will start with Ciel's impressions before they ever met, because they're actually pretty important too and I just didn't get a chance to tag and play it out before Mabel got converted, but. He was actually a little surprised to see a set of twins there, and as soon as he heard about what the game was really for, he was immediately most worried for the two of them because he was totally projecting a lot. Like, no matter what happened, it was really likely that one of them was going to die before the other, and that was deeply upsetting and personal for Ciel. As such, as soon as he heard about it, he was really dedicated to the idea that he would help out whichever one was left, because he does know exactly what it's like to lose someone that important to you, and it's not something he would want anyone else to go through alone.

Then for the actual conversion itself, looking back at this thread now, it should give a lot more context as to what Ciel was thinking at the time. He was really quite against it, because like he says or sort of implies, he'd really prefer that Mabel stay innocent, because Ciel perceives his murdering and general bad guy activities as being a choice, and he thinks that forcing someone into it is really loathsome. He would have objected to it a lot more if Ibuki hadn't had a really good point that at least at the time, Mabel was a really good strategic move to make sure that they would keep their numbers up. Little did they expect the bloodthirstiness of the guests, but. It was a logical choice in that sense, and Ciel really had to struggle a little bit with doing what it took to win versus doing what he felt was right, but it's obvious which side won out.

And he felt incredibly guilty about that, which is why he was so nice to her from the very start. For now obvious reasons, Ciel only really bonds with people around his age, and for people younger than him especially, he has a soft spot to begin with, but he felt very guilty about agreeing to let her join them. To him, even though the deaths aren't real, that was never the part that mattered—The process of killing them is real enough that how it effects the killer is functionally the same. And while he was really, really opposed to killing Dipper at all just because of how he knew that would hurt Mabel... He also understood the reasoning of why she felt she had to do it, since if it had been him and his brother, it would have been the same.

As such, he had planned to walk her back and talk to her as soon as they decided on Dipper, but then Mabel was (unsurprisingly) really upset. And in fact, Ciel was pretty upset by it too, since he had killed someone's twin brother, which is uh. A big trigger issue for him. But he pushed all of that aside, and instead decided to focus on helping Mabel. He not only revealed something that is very much something he considers a secret but also something deeply personal and painful to him. He used his own experience to help Mabel, which just isn't something that comes naturally to Ciel at all.

So, as you would imagine, Ciel got very, very attached to Mabel, and very quickly. He couldn't accept the idea because it felt disrespectful, but at the same time, he totally agreed with the idea of being her pseudotwin at heart. It's not something he would probably realize himself, but there was definitely the sense with him that if he managed to protect and shield Mabel, even at the cost of his own life, then maybe it would help repent or make up for his own brother's death. After all, even though his brother's death was definitely not Ciel's fault in the slightest, he has a huge amount of survivor's guilt and also feels that he took advantage of his brother's passing, since it's implied that his brother's soul was used to summon Sebastian. So while he did want to protect Mabel in a very genuine way, it was also something that he was trying to do as if to make right with his own past and issues.

And things were good for a while! Mabel was definitely Ciel's favorite VIP and he always took extra effort to be nice to her and make sure she was happy, and also to turn down his Ciel...ness... in general. It seemed like they were going to win, so he was pretty content to relax and do something that he just didn't get to do around her which was to act his age. He was genuinely very relaxed around her and open, for the most part, even when he got flustered about like everything because he's a big dumb nerd...

However, since it wasn't meant to last and they were suddenly down to Patchouli, Mabel, and Ciel in one day, he very drastically stopped that and shifted his strategy as soon as Royce showed up exploded, pretty much. Because he knew about Peko narrowing in on Tamaki, he knew they would be down to three that day regardless, so Ciel knew that they weren't going to win. Since his goal wasn't actually that important to him, considering he had Sebastian for that reason, he shifted his priorities to protect Mabel instead. After all, he absolutely did not want her to be the last one standing with no one to defend her, because he didn't think she deserved that at all. He was doing everything he could to make sure that he was going to be the last one, and in his mind, that meant the person to receive the brunt of the wrath of the guests. Which my god, he was not wrong about that after all, BUT STILL.

It was pretty clear that Patchouli was going to get executed the next day, so Ciel was really panicking when Nanami and Oz approached, since his plan had been to throw Mabel under the bus, seemingly, to save her, but he knew that wouldn't work now, since they would probably hesitate to execute Mabel knowing her partner was innocent over Ciel the single. He was ready to be absolutely nasty and vicious to make sure that Mabel went first, but he didn't need to, as it turned out? Oz had a plan that was peaceful and wasn't a terrible one, and Ciel agreed, since it was the best way to keep Mabel safe!

bUT THEN CROCS...

So Ciel would have had a hard time agreeing to that bullshit anyways, but the contingent that really got him to agree to do it at all was the idea that Mabel wouldn't have to help. In his mind, it was always something that he had to handle alone just because he didn't want Mabel to be ruined by violence like he was. He really, genuinely wants Mabel to walk away from this as safe and happy as possible, so in exchange, to him, he'll take on all of it because he's beyond saving/not worth the consideration anyways. What he said to Crocs illustrates his mindset here best, that it was just a drop in the bucket for him, because he's definitely not exaggerating. He's already killed quite a lot of people, so one more wouldn't have mattered as much to him as it would have to Mabel, who had only killed Dipper. He was wrong, naturally, since it ended up being a hugely traumatic way for Ciel to kill someone, but. He still doesn't regret not letting Mabel participate at all.

So come endgame, even if he had to relive pretty much every trauma in his life and get pretty brutally beaten, if there's one thing Ciel is proud of, it's that he managed to keep Mabel as safe as he could. When the Sudden Death round happened, he was so, so worried that all of his efforts would be for nothing, which is why he went in quite literally guns a'blazin', since still, if he could spare Mabel of as much bloodshed as possible, then it would be fine. And it's a very bittersweet sort of victory, because while he's happy for Mabel to be reuinted with Dipper, he's also deeply sad and envious that she got to reunite, because, well, he can't. And now Mabel is going to leave forever, so he'll be alone again. It's obviously not as traumatic as how he lost his first twin, but he's still going to be much more deeply upset to be leaving the people he got close to in murderpark, much less Mabel.

Yet still, despite all of those bad feelings that come with parting, he really, really hopes that she has a good, long life. It's something that he can never have, so at the very least, he wants his struggling in murderpark to have meant something for Mabel and given her a chance to live like he never got to.

[ineptus]

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see and that face is why he went to go live with dipper and mabel in a happy au instead... clearly...