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She thought Aya was cool because she interviewed a real true rockstar and put that very true interview in her very true paper. So she never really had any other thoughts of her one way or the other until Aya treated her the way she did during her reveal.

When she mentioned that Clash hated herself, all she could do what vehemently deny it because she's in severe denial about that. Her posturing is all about trying to make her look important and relevant, but she has no skills to keep her relevant. She really did hate herself enough to do everything she did, but Aya kept going on and on and slowly breaking down those walls.

So, Aya's made her realize how low her self-esteem is and she hates it, but she respects Aya for being able to call it when she sees it. Clash had much of an unbiased view between regular guests and VIPs as much as Aya did, so in that regard she knew deep down that's why Aya could see stuff like posturing or that she understood why she didn't want to pin Clash as a horrible person yet without the facts and information first. Aya's comment definitely made her think about herself which is something that always looks like she's doing, but really others come first and foremost. She's an expendable and that's all she ever viewed herself as.

She's still a little hesitant to explore the parts of herself she hates (nearly all of it) but she won't forget Aya's words any time soon.

Ha ha yeah that was mostly a shot in the dark sort of guess into Clash's motives, but she definitely got the general idea. Even if she doesn't really understand it. Most touhous are jerks without much self-doubt, Aya included.

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SHE LIKES CIEL SO MUCH.

It's so hard for her to put into words, but she sees a lot of humanity in him where others don't. She never really thought about him much before, but she liked that he always agreed with her theories or whatever she had to say. That is obviously the main point of liking people: they don't disagree with you. So he made an impression on her.

Him, Oz, and Mabel were the only people who truly supported her throughout her whole confession/explanation. She honestly didn't expect him of all people to call her kind or understand where she was coming from, so it really knocked her off guard that, even though they hadn't spoken much, he still saw her as someone who was kind and was performing a selfless act by being selfish. It really resonated with her until her end, which is why she thanked him because it was just so unexpected but so comforting.

She was honestly infuriated that people were doubting him and Oz though, especially because they both stood up for her and took the time to actually see what she was doing rather than want her for bloodthirsty revenge. When she found out he was a VIP, she honestly was not surprised because she figured that was a part of him knowing where her actions came from, but she was so mad that people were discounting his words and actions even knowing the full story (especially if they saw her own debriefing). It really cut into her because they were all treating him like they treated her and it hurt too much to watch it on an outside perspective.

Clash honestly doesn't think of him as a person. She thinks of him how she would think of herself if she delved into it: a scared kid without anyone to see the good in her like their authority figure does (her dad, Sebastian). I think she could easily understand his terror and fear, needing to have this all end so others don't get hurt, because those were her exact reasons of why she did what she did. So she was massively angry at everyone else for not seeing that. :(

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Adopted murdersis????

She still thinks she shouldn't have suddenly gone back on Missile when he accused her after being so vehement about saving him!! That's based on her weird views of loyalty though because she hasn't had any real friends of her own before and she thinks you're supposed to always stand up for them no matter what they do. As a VIP though, she never really thought bad of Edea. There wasn't any reason to since she didn't have any basis on how they work, but this is a girl who secretly loves the Holograms as much as she loves the Misfits so...

She thought Edea was a little stuck-up at first (thinks the girl who likes putting on a snobby air) but then when she ended up in the graveyard and Edea treated her with such kindness, her whole view changed. Her words were incredibly strong for her at that moment, because she had to spend the entire day hating herself more than usual so she could get herself killed so to be given that kind of positive reinforcement after all that she's done just broke her down even more.

Clash has always been an only child with no siblings or sibling-like figures in her life except for the Misfits. She was never close to her cousin, because Constant and Vivien were always rivals, so for her to take her in like an older sister and treat her so kindly was something she loved and adored, but didn't think she deserved after all that happened. She really likes Edea, but she's also really happy that Edea learned that the whole bloodthirsty animalistic view isn't the way to go after seeing the other end because she was a VIP.

Hey-oooo

She feels so bad she killed him and that he was her first kill even though she was brainwashed. Like, he and Anise are the youngest people she's killed and she feels awful about it. She knows she won't ever be able to make it up to him, so she doesn't even try and understands his hesitance around her completely.

But she can also understand his posturing, especially because she did and does a lot of her own. If Aya hadn't pointed out how much she loathes herself, she probably wouldn't have realized that and wouldn't have seen the compassion in Yuya. She likes how he talks about his dad too, because her mom left her when she was little, but her dad has been by her side and she assumes if a guy like that just disappeared it's not because he walked out on him.

She thinks he sounds like a nice kid but yeah... all their conversations would be super strained and not at all comfortable, so she doesn't even try. :( She's extremely grateful he is not out for her blood though, especially after Peko's extreme threat.

ok

(deep breath)

She loves Ibuki. Out of every single person in this entire park, she loves Ibuki the most. Like I've stated before, she probably confuses being in love for being best friends since nobody has treated her the way Ibuki has before, but she honestly cares for Ibuki so much. She would do anything for her, go anywhere with her, listen to everything she says and never get annoyed because Ibuki started something nobody else has.

She never felt betrayed that Ibuki ended up being a VIP. By the end of her trial, she knew it was the truth and knew that all she could do was stick beside her and stay with her rather than be against her in the end. Even after all the deaths, she knew Ibuki wasn't lying to her about everything. She wanted to beat the game for the both of them and make it out for the both of them, even if she wasn't physically by her side. She was still there in her thoughts, letters, etc.

Alas, this is before she found out she was the bomber. Ibuki's death made her incredibly angry and willing to strike anyone, it didn't matter to her at all even if she couldn't remember it. Her life was seriously empty without her and she just felt so lost and alone, there was a huge hole in her heart that nobody could replace. She was mad that people didn't understand why she had to stay by Ibuki's side because she felt that she didn't have to explain it at all. It was all there in the way she acted during the trial.

The stress of Ibuki's death is what made her find out she was the bomber though! She started feeling disorientation and strange bouts of derealization, but had nothing to pin it to until she found the detonator in her pocket. Ibuki's loss just hit her that hard that she sabotaged herself to be revealed so that she wouldn't hurt anyone else.

Basically, Clash has never had a best friend. All of her friends were once Vivien's and she only stole them out of jealousy to prove that she was better. The Misfits were her thoughts of "best friends" but she never realized how they treated her until Ibuki treated her so much differently and didn't need to be impressed or constantly have things done for her like Pizzazz and the others do. It was so confusing, but such a relief that she didn't want to let her go, so she promised to stay by her side no matter what. Morning and night, during accusations of her being a VIP, everything. She feared Ibuki's death as much as she feared her own.

The fact that Ibuki didn't hate her for what she did either makes her so happy. Part of the reason why she did it was because of how much she cares for Ibuki. If she were still alive while Clash was a bomber, she would have done the same exact thing: make people hate her and vote for her, because she wouldn't want to harm people but especially Ibuki and Mabel.

So she has all these conflicted feelings because she loves Ibuki, but she thinks that she wants to be with her forever, even knowing her situation. And she does, but she still hasn't separated if it's platonic or romantic. Clash definitely would have given her a firm kiss on the lips at the end of it all. ♥

CLASH

THAT'S WHAT WE'RE GONNA DO IF YOU DON'T STEP ASIDE

Okay for real, she really likes Oz. Like she saw him as just some casual acquaintance before when they were talking about music videos and all kinds of fun technology. She liked when he made her oatmeal and thought it was hilarious that Ciel and him burned tea bags. So basically she just thought he was some average dude.

When he came up to her after her confession, she honestly didn't know what to expect (NEITHER DID I but it turned out amazing) so when he mentioned how lonely she must have felt, she was so angry at him. He was doing exactly what she wanted nobody to do before they realized it was too late, but (like Aya) he pegged every single thing about her. She hated that she couldn't control the people who were a lot like how she acted during Ibuki's trial when she wanted people to just fiercely despise her for her actions, even though someone else made her be that way.

She thought he was a total idiot for doing it at first, but she was so grateful that he took the time to hang out with her and get to know the real her. The only other people who did that were Ibuki and Mabel. She was so shocked when he asked if he could stand by her because, again, she was so alone in her preparations and reveal that she was terrified. She just wanted someone to understand and love her, even if she was going about things in a way that looked wrong, but was intentionally right.

She thinks he so smart and that his optimism isn't blind optimism, but the sort of pragmatism that she has. The ability to see hope in people and give them the same love that she wants without knowing that a handful of them aren't going to see them that way. Everything he said and did just made her feel so included, but also helped realize how empty her life really is because there isn't much she can do either.

He was there for her when she was feeling helpless and she wanted to return the same notion when he arrived in the graveyard. Now she's just so unsure of everything, she doesn't know where she stands in her own life and she's going to miss not having him there to be beside her when she's scared. She's terrified of seeing the world without someone beside her, but more so terrified of not having someone who understands that deep loneliness and self-loathing she has for herself. She will definitely miss being able to hold his hand and leaning against him.

Weirdly enough, she's also still happy that he's the one who actually blew her up?! Clash definitely saw him having the right for that.

GOD THIS KILLS ME..... CLASH... AGH... i'm so glad that oz has the ability to see through that kind of stuff because that entire turn in cr turned out so interesting and good

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hey

Nui was a super interesting case. She reminds Clash a lot of Pizzazz, especially right off the bat. Alas, her dedication to the actual Pizzazz overshadows her dedication to replacement Pizzazz so that's why she never fully sucked up to her.

She was super confused as to why Nui didn't fight more for her life while she was stirring things up though. Like, again, her image of Pizzazz would be to make mischief and get everyone all riled up, but she'd still work harder to save her ass if she were going to be executed. Which is why she didn't understand what Nui's tactics were. She couldn't even feel bad about it because she didn't understand?! She still voted for Francis because she didn't want to vote differently or vote no one and look super suspicious even though (at the time) she had no real reason to be, but self-preservation in the face of innocence is what she was all about for that first-half.

I would have loved to have seen them make some more mischief and be totally rampant though. They would have ruled the park given the opportunity.

Also she was my first choice on the first list to die, but something prevented that from happening and Yuya was killed instead. SHE WOULD HAVE DIED REGARDLESS.

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how did you feel blowing up this poor sweet mathematician who totally didn't murder anyone ever

The sad part is she regrets killing Anise more than she regrets killing Royce. She was also infuriated by Ibuki's death that she went rampant in both those moments of brainwashing and how she felt about nearly everyone else, so Royce was unfortunately a target of that anger...

For the most part though, she liked that he agreed with her about the interviews even if it could have ended up being for nefarious purposes like getting people to reveal their roles or drop hints about them maybe knowing about any VIPs, but she's still proud at how she got him to do it since it was her suggestion and it was worth a try. Turns out that it helped Clash know that Edea was a VIP so thanks guys!!!

Really she knows she should feel bad for killing a VIP, but Anise's death overshadowed his. Sorry Royce :'( She has nothing against him though! Clash likes that he was so willing to help explain everything and treated her so well after her debriefing.

if you didn't expect this i'm disappointed

Okay here's part one because I want you to have at least something to read while I'm gone until Saturday.

Clash hates kid. She HATES them. This is a girl who told an orphan her dad was looking for her in the lobby of a hotel so she could sneak into a Jem conference to make the Holograms look bad and this is a girl that cheated to get the Misfits to win a record selling contest right in front of a kid. She hates kids because she is a kid. They get so much more attention than her so she finds ways to take it away from them and for everything to be focused on her.

Not Mabel. Mabel changed her entire perspective from day one because she has that same rebellious spirit and love for mischief making that Clash has, but she's also really sympathetic. She loved being an influence for her and watching her totally take on all her cool tactics and she loved that she could hang out with Ibuki and Mabel like she could hang out with the Misfits. It was just a lot of fun to be surrounded by them because she felt right at home with people she really enjoyed spending time with.

After Dipper's death, Clash had NO idea what to do because she never thinks that the most important person to her (her dad) would ever leave her or die, which is why she felt so bad for Mabel because she knows she thought the same exact thing. She isn't really good with affection that's not... directed at her or someone she wants to give her praise, so she was really upset for Mabel and didn't know how to deal with it. Really she just wanted to do fun stuff like hang out or show Mabel her favorite places, which is why she started talking about everything she did. She wanted Mabel to feel like she was a part of her life and could be a part of her life which is why I think she grew so attached to her.

Part of it is that, her and her older cousin never got along from day one. Her dad always pinned her against her older cousin so Constance could always show how much better she was than Vivien since their dads (who are twins) had their own rivalry from a young age. Constance has seriously wanted a sister or at least someone very close to who she could call a friend of her own (that she didn't steal from Vivien) that I don't think either cousin realized that they could have been close and fill in that gap of wanting to be siblings. It would have changed so many things in each of their lives, but neither of them bothered to take that first step to understand one another because they're more alike than either of them would like to admit.

So when she saw how close Mabel and Dipper are, she was jealous at first. She wants a connection like that so bad, she wants someone to feel like her own twin or to know exactly what she's thinking because she's never had that in her entire life. That's why she was so adamant about Mabel's protection, because that was the closest she ever felt to having a sister who was on her same wavelength. After Ibuki was executed, she was going to fight the rest of the game so Mabel would live and make it out alive. This was at the point where she didn't realize she was the bomber though.

BACK FOR PART TWO

When Clash realized that she was the bomber, the only person on her mind was Mabel because she was the most important person to her left in Dreamland (well... before Oz had to come and approach her, of course). She knew very well that she wouldn't make it through the rest of the game, so she revealed herself to be the bomber before she killed Mabel without knowing it. All this time, she firmly believed this girl would get out and make a name for herself (not in the famous sense technically but... come on, this is Mabel). Clash wouldn't have to kill people anymore, she could be stopped before she could kill for multiple days.

She tried to get Mabel to hate her, but it was impossible. It was easy to get everyone else to do it, but the one person she couldn't stand there and lie to was Mabel because she made a promise to herself after the Girl Gang slumber party that she would always be herself about the two of them. Her conversations with Ibuki just made her think that more and more. Around her and Mabel, she didn't have to be her facsimile cool, sophisticated self, she could be herself: the compassionate troublemaker she is.

I think she thought Mabel was going to support her, but she was incredibly surprised to see her stand up and tell people to stop acting like animals. Clash knew that she couldn't do something like that with what she pulled and she was too terrified that if she spoke up against it, people really would tie her up and leave her by the fence. That was the boldest move for Mabel to say something like that and to speak up for someone like Clash, even if Clash knew that she didn't deserve it.

She grew to love Mabel like a little sister and felt so protective over her — which is a complete rarity for her, but then again Mabel is not an average kid. She's a cool kid. Even upon finding out she was a VIP, Clash again couldn't abandon her friend. She couldn't hate Mabel or see her as an awful person or a hypocrite. She adores her in every way she knows she would have adored the Misfits if they let her in.

She was so happy that she didn't have to die or go through those awful debriefings. Her assumptions were right and she knows that giving her her make up palette to keep will mean a lot to the both of them down the line. Clash doesn't have an easy time of letting go of things (even if her dad can just buy them again) so she wanted to make up for all the pain she put Mabel in and give her that nudge of "I know you've got more potential than most people think" because Clash can relate to that more than anything else.

yooo

Kenny is... an enigma to Clash. She thinks he's weird and it's not because of his costume or the fact that he dresses up like a princess (she does both of these things) but because he's a 10 year old boy. Clash doesn't know how to deal with 10 year olds, let alone 10 year old boys so she always just thought she was better than him no matter what.

She was hurt that Kenny was so willing to throw her under the bus and not listen to her, but she also knew that she didn't deserve it at all. Still, while the whole "kill yourself" thing didn't really bother her, the fact that he was so willing to put her through the most torturous ways of death did. She was terrified of death, of what would happen to her and those she cares about after, and mostly that it wouldn't be quick and painless so she would have to suffer long bouts of torture just for people to feel like they were paying a price they would never get back.

Then she understood where Kenny and Sheba were coming from because of their role and that they couldn't stop someone like her from killing someone they were protecting. She understood why it seemed so hopeless for them because of that.

I don't think Kenny and her would ever be friends, but Clash admires him for his beliefs and never going back on them, as well as his need to have fun by dressing up. They would have a lot more interesting conversations I think, but at the same time, there would always be a hesitance or even an underlying layer of anger (on Kenny's side) that the conversations wouldn't last more for a couple of lines.